I am barely keeping my life together and now I’m supposed to make resolutions? To what? To commit to more things when I’m already falling behind in the stuff I’m committed to? To lose weight when I’m already busting my butt just trying to maintain my current weight? To be a better mother, wife, Christian, friend, daughter when I’m already trying and failing and trying again?
The idea of New Year’s Resolutions is completely overwhelming to me. Here I am drowning in a mess of a house, a bunch of kids, an overload of volunteer commitments, a super strange ever changing work “schedule,” and a long list of unmet personal and professional goals. A New Year’s Resolution just feels like I’ll be throwing one more thing on top of the pile that I’m currently buried in!
I don’t usually make resolutions. Ok, well I usually do eat more salad the first week in January, but that’s mostly because my body is so upset with me after all the crap food I ate the past two weeks and I feel like a little detox is in order. But I promise you, I’m not planning on eating any more salads than is absolutely necessary this coming year. Got a little sidetracked there, sorry! Lemme start over:
I don’t usually make resolutions, but I don’t remember getting upset about about other people making them like I am this year. Whenever I see a friend posting a resolution about losing weight or selling more Lularoe, I get angry! Stop raising the bar people! You’re weight is fine and honestly, we don’t need anymore crazy leggings. Plus, you’re making me feel like I should be resolving to do something which, if you read the second paragraph, you know it’s just not going to happen.
I know what you’re thinking, “Anne, no one can make you feel anything unless you let them.” Which is true. So maybe my problem here is that I’m comparing myself to other people. Which is dumb. Who cares if my friends want to lose weight, get healthier, or sell more crap, I mean, buttery soft leggings? I think that’s’ great for them. And I need to realize that their resolutions have nothing to do with me, that their resolutions aren’t in any way meant to point out that I may need to improve upon myself or my life. So maybe what I should do here is make a concrete decision to stop comparing myself to other people. Yes, that’s it, I’m going to make that decision and see if I can keep it going all year long.